emotions
for some unknown and probably trivial reason
i am rather irritable. I am getting annoyed at the smallest thigns. it is kinda entertaining. that is how rediculous it is. I understand …ok ok
so my last post wasn’t meant to be as sad as writing at 5 in the morning will make it. but anyway. this is really good.today of all days
today was pretty fun. I worked. wore a tie. etc etc. it was nifty. and now I am really pretty tired. I need to get off of this crazy crazy …front by front
One you lock the target, Two you bait the line, Three you slowly spread the net And four you catch the man! i am maybe drunk. it sucks. cuz …cat power
i listened to cat power on the way to work. man. that music is sad. hah. I think one of my favorite songs by her is “good women.” hmm. kinda …my world is weird
the whole thing is so strange. I think I coudl say that right now I am experiencing some of the strangest emotions and experiences I have …jumble
i hate feelings. I hate how small things can cause such weird reverberations within my self. it is hard. I can’t sleep. it hasn’t anything …my oh my
tonight was good. I hung out with morgan a bunch. it was pretty weird. honestly. very strange. but it was also great. it is pretty strange - …jumpin jumpin
tonight I am going to dinner with morgan. it is kinda weird. I haven’t seen her since we broke up. I am a bit apprenhensive - not really …ein
tonight I saw einstuzende neubauten. I am tired. it was good. I hung out with cole and my friend kelly who bartends at metro. it was pretty …i just got up
i am supposed to go juggle with matiss. however. I lost matiss. where is he. The dog I grew up with is really sick aand being put to sleep …i hate endings
i am not good at them. at all. even if they are temporary. or synthetic. i hate being sad. i hate mood swings too. jesus. this shit …whatever. haha.
herersync is my friend. I have a lot of friends. I was worried that I didn’t have any. I expressed that recently in a fit of fear and …gray. i am starting to hate dismantling.
today everything I am wearing is either grey or black. even my underwear and socks. it is kinds funny. I didn’t mrean to and I didn’t really …sometimes things happen and you understand but they aren't easy
tonight was one of those times. where it all makes semse but it didn’t make anything better or easier. only harder. but it will get better. …well
this is an incredible headline. maybe the best fark headline I have ever seen. today I stumbled accross banksy’s site. his stencil work is …yo!
this is pretty funny. as is this. I made a bunch of entries today. this is nice.i talked to morgan a couple tiems today on aim. it is kinda …this sucks. i have decided
so last night after morgan left I felt pretty good. like. “ok this will be fine. I understand. it is all good. I look forward to being her …what happens when it all goes wrong.
today was kinda rough. morgan and I had a discussion last night that ended with our pretty much breaking up. it sucks quite a bit. I really …i don't like this very much.
so. things didn’t get better. that is for sure. sometimes I hate rationality. I wish I didn’t have to speak in riddles and not make sense. …so the cubs lost
heh. it sucks. all of my coworkers are gong to be sad. hopefully they will get over it soon. stupid sports. we should have never let them …Privacy.
This is absolutely insane. especially since I am in there for traffic violations. crazy. Awesome.i am so hot. and I feel weird. but tomorrow …angela.. left.. sad..
so my friend angela moved to L.A. I guess I will have to go and visit. She had a nifty going away party last night. I always look insane in …i think
that the saddest song in the world is Samuel Barber’s Adagio for strings. It is used in ‘Amelie’, ‘platoon’, ‘elephant man’ and ‘Lorenzo’s …very nice and sad weekend
So this weekend was erally great. So much nice stuff happened and went down.. but all because of a very sad reason.. Yesterday bec left for …Today was weird
So I sit her at almost three in the morning with one show off and one shoe on. I have not been home since eight this morning and I have just …emo
I juggled at six flags again this weekend. My hands turn so so black it is unnatural. they just change to a different shade altogether.. no …memories..
I was listening to smoe john zorn minding my own business when outta no where Silent Lucidity by Queensryche comes on. this was a song that …Bone, Thugs and harmony
Last night I worte a little software package that hooks my phone up with ringers and pictures.. heh. nice ;) And the I went to go see bone …tonight..
Tonight I went out with a good friend of mine. it is wierd because they are originally kstar’s friend. but somehow I grafted them over to be …arrgghhh
I am frustrated… arggh..calm
i feel a lot better. wirk is good. my relationship with k*star is no longer, well I mean it is still there.. but we have decided to take a …hmmm....
today, my girlfriend and I have decided to break up. It wasn’t the best of situations for each other…. So after fourteen wonderful months …After some concern...
Ha.. Well after numerous people have asked.. I did have a rough time lately. however I am ok now. I was just sad for a breif period and …Don't ask don't tell
Today is nerve racking. My brother is driving to california to begin what could be his career. He is actually going to go an dbe a …I don't know what is going on..
sometimes things.. when they seem most ontop.. are really on their way down.Sad Books
So I am reading Native Son by Richard Wright and it is real real hard. I don’t like it. But it is so hard to just give up on. I like his …Fear
Damn. I am scared. I need a job. Like really bad. Check out www.nata2.org to see how bad. Well on a lighter note, things with K*star are …